It Just Doesn't End........

Hi Friends,

               Well, I guess I spoke to soon about hoping things were taking a turn for the better for Kevin. We have made many more trips to the ER, DR's., and finally  a specialist. We are finally getting answers and soon, hopefully with surgery he will be ok. He was fighting UTI's and yeast infections constantly and was referred to a Urologist, finally. He ran some tests and now we have answer. Kevin has Bladder Stone's at first we were told 3 but now there is 4 and they are all at least 1" in diameter each. He was scheduled for surgery this past Wednesday and the surgeon was going to remove them using a scope, Long story short, he ran into scar tissue and was unable to complete the surgery. Kevin is trying to find another surgeon who is willing to do the surgery the old way,  incision, and take them out that way. Keep him in your prayers if you can that he can get this done soon. He has already lost about 80 lbs..

         I have been doing ok, just trying to hold things together and keep Kevin going so he doesn't give up. He talks about that a lot the longer this goes on and he has anger management & depression problems also. I get a few hours sleep here and there at night and just grab a bite of  junk food on the run during the day. We will make it through all of this one way or another with God's help. Having our faith is what has kept us going through all of this.

           We have a new addition to our family, His name is Star. He is a short hair domestic rescue kitty from the shelter. We adopted 2 but the other one who was also black and named Shadow died a couple of months later. He had FIP. We are very lucky Star didn't get it too. Star got his name because he has a white star on his throat. He is getting to be a very large cat. He will be 1 year old April 28. I would love to get a small puppy , so they could play together. I miss having a dog so much, but I love my Star Kitty!!

         I have been in the mood to downsize. We just have too much stuff, so it's going out of here...donate, sell whatever it takes. I believe everything we have been going through has made me realize just what is more important.  I'm going to be getting rid of a LOT of my craft and sewing supplies, household items and more. I want to focus mostly on embroidery and small prims.

        It has taken me at least 4 hours or more to write this counting all  of the interruptions since I started it. I really want to get back to blogging, so I can have something positive to focus my thoughts on. I miss all of my blogging friends too!!! You guys are the greatest!!

        Thanks to all of you who have stayed with me here and followed what little I have posted.  I'm very serious about  getting my own life back on track and starting to take care of me more for a change.  I know that means a lot of work for me..diet, exercise,  making time for my sewing/crafting, taking care of the  apt. and most of all Bible Study and spending time with God.

          I hope to be back posting, even if it's just to say "HI, I'm still alive", very soon depending on how Kevin's health goes. The biggest lesson all of this has taught me is that I need to take care of myself too.

Blessings,
Brenda

Changes are Coming....

I will be starting to make a lot of changes on my blog in the near future.

Kevin has been very ill and almost died last April..  It has been a long recuperation period with a lot of set backs. We've made more trips to the ER and Dr. than I can keep track of.   I will post more on what has been happening over the next few days.

I hope to have things changed and be back to blogging daily by the 1st of February.

I've missed keeping up with all of you..

Hugs,
Brenda

Not feeling to good

the last couple of days. I think that flu bug is trying to invade our space.  My aunt and uncle were supposed to come today for a visit, they are both in their 80's, and I called and told them I was sick . They decided to stay home for now. I think they made the right decision. I would hate for them to get sick at their age!

I'm not crazy about the thought of more snow coming in the next few days, but would rather see it than the thunderstorms we will be having in a few months. I don't like storms!

 The unpacking has slowed down the last few days since I haven't been feeling good. I hope I can get back to it soon. I'm getting down to all that is left now is my crafting and sewing supplies. I have  about 12 foot of shelves  set up along one wall of our bedroom that are at least 6' high to put all  or most of my craft and sewing supplies on. I can't wait to get into the boxes to see what I have, some of it has been packed up a long time. I'm putting it all in clear storage boxes on the shelves. I've got a lot of ideas for things I want to make to sell, hopefully on my new selling blog, which is under construction. The economy worries me though right now when it comes to crafts. 

I'm off to bed, maybe I can get warm, I'm freezing right now, chills I guess.

Have a good night my friends, I'll talk to you tomorrow.

Hugs and Blessings,

Brenda

Just a quick note tonight........

and then I'm off to bed! Got a lot done today. All of the books are unpacked and on shelves. I have way too many books. I got my side of the office/craft/sewing room done, finally. I'm going to try to get my shelves up that hold my nic-nacs tomorrow. I hope to get some of them on the shelves if I can.

My aunt and uncle are coming to visit Wednesday, so I want to get as much finished as I can. I've already warned them that there will be boxes sitting around still!! LOL

I just wanted to check in and say HI to all of you. I hope you've had a good day today.

Well, I'm off to bed, it's been a long day and tomorrow will be even longer.

Have a good night , I will talk to you tomorrow.
Sweet Dreams my friends,

Hugs and Blessings,
Brenda

Moving Day ..........

.......is Dec. 21 for the boxes of stuff and Dec. 22, the furniture moves over. I'm praying that we don't have a lot of snow those days. We don't have far to go it's just the idea of having to take everything out in the snow. I will be so relieved when this move is over. I'm getting too old for this stuff.  The one nice thing about the apartment is that it is priced so if something happens to one of us the other one can still live there. It falls in our budget range with assistance. That means we never have to move again!!!

Are you all ready for Christmas?  We have a 34" fiber optic tree up in the office, I was going to have a tree somewhere or else! I love to decorate for Christmas , it's my favorite time of the year, but not this year with the move.  I will make up for it next year though, nothing will be left without some kind of decoration on it!! LOL

I missed out on all of my holiday baking too, but maybe that's a good thing. I'm still trying to lose weight and keep my sugar under control. I've done pretty good so far, I rarely have to take my diabetes meds., and my Doctor is happy with my readings, if she's happy then I'm happy !

I hope to be able to get back to my sewing and crafts after we are settled from the move. I have some clothes cut out for Kevin and I that I want to get made up and a whole bunch of ideas for craft/sewing things I want to get made and put on my selling blog. The selling blog has had to take a back seat due to everything that has been going on. I had planned on having it up and running the first of November. I was having problems with the backgrounds and deciding if I wanted 2 or 3 columns etc..  I decided it was better to wait until everything was settled down here and I could give it my full concentration.

I hope you all have a peaceful night and a safe weekend if you are out and about. I will be right here in my card board jungle of boxes!!

Good Night,
Hugs and Blessings my friends,
Brenda

A Nice Visit Today....

We had a nice visit today with my aunt and uncle from Dayton. She is my dads only living sister, she's 84 and the last of the 4 kids. My dad was the 1st to pass on to a better place in 1971....3 weeks before I graduated from high school. They come down 3 or 4 times a year and always try to make 1 visit close to my birthday, which is tomorrow. She brought an Apple Dump Cake she made, so good! and a card. We also got a pizza to share. I really enjoyed the visit. It was so nice to see family, something that doesn't happen very often. Everyone is scattered around here and there like so many families.

I've finally gotten back to sewing..YIPPEE!!!! I've finished 3 tops and a night shirt, for me. I have some shirts Kevin needs to have altered next, then it's onto making Christmas gifts and things.... TO SELL.... hopefully. I have quite a pile of things gathered up to list on here and I keep finding more as I sort through things. I have aprons, towel sets, wreaths, etc. and a lot of extra supplies and I'm still finding more.

I had a panic attack yesterday, the worst one I've had in a while. I'm not sure what triggered it but I got through it after a while. I prayed my way through it. I know God was with me. It sure scared me though. I hope I don't start having them like I used to. I have too many things I want to do.

It's been a long day and I'm getting tired. Kevin went to bed at 8PM. I just can't wind down that early, I have to wind down slowly. I think I've managed to wind down completely now so I'm off to bed and slumberland!!!

I hope you all have a good night.

Hugs and Blessings,
Brenda

New Recipes on my Kitchen Blog!!

I thought I would post a couple of recipes on the kitchen blog before I go to bed. I hope you enjoy them!

Today was another long day. Kevin went with me to Walmart and Dollar Tree. He did good though. It is so hard for him to get into the van but he made it and even walked from Walmart to Dollar Tree while I was checking out. It was a mad house in both stores. I only got a few things at each store and said the heck with it, too many people. I do have to go to Krogers in the morning for a couple of things they have on special then I will wait until the 1st of the month crowd slows down so I can shop in peace LOL!!!

I finished up a centerpiece I was working on today. I will take a picture of it and some of the other fall decorations I've put up in here tomorrow. Now if we just had a table to put the centerpiece on that would be great!! LOL We eat or meals & watch TV on the computers etc. at our computer desks. We only have 2 other office chairs in our living room for company, the couple times a year my aunt & uncle visit. I would love to have a nice comfortable couch or chair to sit in. Oh well that's life!! LOL

I stopped at the farmers market or whats left of it, 2 vendors ;). I bought another jar of the best honey I've ever had today. I have about 2 1/2# of honey now. Might get another one next Saturday if I have any money left. Things are going to be very tight this month. I wish I could sell some of the things I've gathered up that I would like to get rid of. The economy is really bad here since DHL pulled out of Wilmington. A lot of the people from here worked there. Times are bad everywhere.

It's getting late and I'm winding down so I think I will say "Good Night" to all of you. I hope you have sweet dreams , see you tomorrow.

Hugs and Blessings,
B

Just stopping by on my way to bed.....

and thought I would say goodnight to you all. It has been a busy day around here today. I did a lot of work on the "kitchen" blog and have finally got all of the categories the way I want them. I have my cookbook here set up the same way and will be adding recipes to the blog and my cookbook at the same time...did some laundry and cleaning too.

I got an email from an old friend that I grew up with today. It was the bright spot in my day...made me feel really good ! ;)It helped me through the afternoon when Kevin was having one of his anger problems. He scares the daylights out of me when he gets like that. I just want to grab my cat and my things and run as far away as I can. The problem is I have no where to go or no friends or family to turn to for help. He has no family either to go to. I know it is caused from the fall he had 3 years ago that broke the femur in his left leg. He can't get out and go like he used to do. It's still hard for him to walk and to get in & out of the van. It would upset me too, but not to the extent it does him. I can't handle the hollering and throwing things that he does. My nerves are on edge all of the time anymore.

Sorry I guess I just needed to vent, thanks for being here for me. I don't know what I would do without you guys, my dear blogging friends. You all mean so much to me. I want to get back to blogging and reading your blogs more often, I think it would do me good. I miss visiting with all of you too!

I'm going to end this for now and will see you all tomorrow....hopefully it will be a better day. I have to go shopping in the morning so I will be gone for a little while.

Good Night,
Hugs and Blessings,
B

Another Year Older........

Yep, today was my birthday., just another day, another year... It was a good day though, although kind of bittersweet for me. Today is also my great-grandmothers death anniversary, 35 years ago today she left us. She had always made her home with us, so she was like a second mother. I learned to bake, preserve and a lot of the old ways of doing things from her. Rest in Peace "Mom",(as she was know to everyone).

My aunt & uncle (daddy's sister & husband) came down from Dayton today for a visit. It was good to see them, it's been awhile. It is always nice to see family. I wish I lived closer to what little family I have. Maybe someday.....

Blessings and hugs,